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sometimes i think my step-dad hates me...really. i don't know what to think about him, does he hate me..love me? think of me as his child? i just don't know. i hate that i get sick when i get stressed. and he stresses me out so much. everytime i sit down to eat he manages to make me lose my appitiete, or lose what i've eaten. i don't know what to do, i never do. i guess just deal with it. i'll probably turn in earily. i needed to talk to someone, but now i don't feel so much like talking to anyone. so maybe paige will just go to bed earily and get a good nights sleep. hmmmm. also, i think that kyle and i's friendship is coming apart :( ... <3
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[07 Jun 2004|12:06am] |
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soooo it's been a while i noticed. you know..whatever. i had to take a couple of entries out. i think i'm just going to *move* this whole journal to another journal. the stuff on here i used to think was useless and stupid and everything like that...but i've come to realize (with the help of one of my bestest friends) that it's not stupid. it was all just alot of misunderstandings. people should talk more...it resolves problems alot better x.x;;; anyway. i'm working on the new journal as well as some other things.
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[17 Feb 2004|07:29pm] |
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sooo, how's it going? haha. anyway, i've been up to no good. pissin' my parents off as normal. my mom hates it because the new puppie (let's talk about that later) might like me better. SO WHAT?! I've NEVER had a dog of my own, she can just run off a cliff right now. Well, we had to put a dog of mine to sleep. he was old, and just couldn't do it anymore. that's why we got the new puppy. Winston. hehe. he's so cute. a little long haired chihuahua. he's black with brown and white markings like a Rott. Only, he's like...one and a half pounds <3. We have a band compitition Thursday. And FRIDAY! OMG! I get to go to Shawnee and visit St. Gregorys University. We're (Kim and I) staying the night in her sis' dorm. I can't wait! so cool. we get to go to the b-ball game. I really can't wait. cute guys <3 yummie... >P night now...
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[04 Feb 2004|08:44pm] |
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| Amphie .... the new beta |
[31 Jan 2004|09:58pm] |
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Amphie is her nam-o. Amphitrite was a neraid who was married to Neptune, Roman god of the sea. so, while Amphie is bigger then Neptune, Amphie is her nam-o.. Simply because...Neptune already had his name <3. see ya! <3 Amphie Amphie Amphie..rolls off the tongue ^.~
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| boo-ya... I <3 the world |
[31 Jan 2004|02:01pm] |
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I've had a better day today then I have in many. no real reason why...i'm just feelin' good. I'm way happy. I can't wait to go find a job, get away from this little backwards town. I can't wait to graduate and move off to a dorm. live my own life, be around people my age...and HOPEFULY some nice guys >D. <3 <3 <3 guys..the focus of most girls lives.... well, I hope i have more focus then that, i think of guys as the fun add in really...that make life interesting. i got a new beta today, my second one. I have to clean neptune's tank now and add in the divider and put new sand in (he has black sand instead of gravel...it's pretty) then i can add in my new beta. I'm not sure what to name it yet. it's BLUE and BLACK, so yea. Neptune is more of a red and blue to purplish kind color. the new beta is bigger then neptune...but whateva. they be some of meh babies now. I also need to clean Clara's cage (my chinese dwarf hammie..i wanted a fancy mouse...still want a fancy mouse). when I move to my dorm..i hope all these animuls of mine get to come ;_; ..... i'm sure they will..don't take up much room.. AND if i still have room after that, i want a small Dove. these pretty gray ones, or some other kind of small bird. I love these little animals. I want a dog and to take my cat, but i know i can't. I don't know what i'll do without my Sammi cat :/. ANYWAY! time to go, need to buy new jeans (yes! ... new clothes <3)
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| lala...i'm CRAZY... |
[31 Jan 2004|09:35am] |
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soo, it's like morning.. :D! I had a purty good night. I thought it was going to be crappy. I got really upset when *someone* told me I was...crazy, yea...crazy. but whatever. i'm sure i'll get over it and think it's funny later. i really don't care becauuuuuuuse I got to go bowling with a bunch of my friends. it was fun stuff. Kim went too, and she met this guy there that she had known .. back in like seventh grade. it was cool! he was cute ^^, and a huuuuuuge flirt, even with me. so yea...then i got to thinking about guys again ... sometimes i just wish i could be completely happy...i say he was cute..but he was more then that really. the problem..he's only a sophmore (as kim said...what's with us and sophmores) but since nothing would ever happen there, cause i'll probably never even see him again..i don't care. it was just fun <3 buuut...back to him being cute, really he was a little beyond cute :X .. my my ... he like..used to be a model or something..and can bench 200 and something... psh...worked for me. gooooood to look at >D. pretty eyes too. whatever..i had fun looking. kim really likes him. they traded numbers and such, i've like to see how that turns out. well, i hope.
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[29 Jan 2004|09:11pm] |
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long time no update..right? yea...whatever. You ever have those people that you want to be nice too..but you just can't? if it's not one thing about this person that pisses me off (and i got over the first thing) then a second..or third thing pops up. i just can't be nice to this person... then there's that other person (haha..i love the lack of names) but this second person, i want to be friends with..i'm just finding it really hard. and i won't take all the blame for this one (though i do accept part of it) neeeeeext "look! dinner and a movie" anyway... i'm so tired...for the last two days i've been running around doing, of all things, cartwheels.. i'm all "wwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee!...lets do it again" so my body is just dead right now. i'm so tired. i'm messing up my typing super bad. sooo.. it blew..took me forever to get my hand in the right spot.. i just kept hitting delete and typing the same way. i felt stupid. i need to work on my site, i just have no energy..and so many other things i need to do. tomarrow i get to go turn in my app at PAWS .. .and then i have a basketball game, then i might get to go "cyber bowling" we'll see..depends on who's going.. soo that's all..i'm done <3 me
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[12 Jan 2004|06:33pm] |
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it's been a little while, so where to start? nowhere...there's not much going on. I'm still trying to figure myself out, I don't know what to think alot of the time...about alot of things. there will probably be a friends only entry following this one. buuuut anyway. i just don't know what to say or think, as i said...there isn't much to say. roger's county is this week...i can't wait. kim and i are wearing our "party" shirts friday....still can't wait. car works again. tomarrow i'm going to apply for a job at this place called arrow speed...do some office work for them after school and on saturdays. i don't think it would be to bad. the hours would be pretty cool. plus it would probably be pretty easy for me to get a job there, since they all know my step-dad...AND one of my step-dads good friends work there. i dunno why i didn't think about this before. they aren't far from school, and i wouldn't have to go on the highway. i dunno what i'd get paid, or even that i might for sure get a job there..but it's worth a try..right? I'm going to ask mark tomarrow what to say and such. so i luff ya' all..night my dolls.
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| that random crap that is me |
[06 Jan 2004|10:21pm] |
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it's so unfair...my long haired chihuahua has better hair then me..i'll have to get a pic of him up. his hair behind his ears is all pretty and soft and crimpy...but now...if we lived like them ours would be greasy and gross...whatever...random thought-ness..now i have to run back to the PIRATES (PotC) and Jack Sparrow <3
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[06 Jan 2004|06:22pm] |
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so ... what do i have to do to get people to read this thang... O_o; hmm...i need advice tooo!... well, not right now, but generally I do O_o .. hahahaha. whatever. i really don't care. i was just curious. well..la, de, da...i'm outtie for the moment. have to shower and straighten my hair for tomarrow (what's so special? jack crap..that's what...) .. also, I might eat something (who knows...i've gained ten pounds, need to watch what i eat!)
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| hey baby, hey baby...hey! |
[05 Jan 2004|08:22pm] |
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soooo just a little update, since it has been f o r e v e r since i update. happy new year! yay! I took down rhapsody (temp...really..like a week or so) just long enough to make a new layout. my room is done! yay! shelves are all up, it's super cool. i joined a new message board. I have three more weeks to find a job (i might have one though ^.~ coool) .. I've been to the mall alot lately. my dad major jiped me this christmas :/ ... I got my hair cut, it's all cool. i like it... i got cool silky dark purple chucks (yay!) i really like them. i can't decide how to wear my hair tomarrow to best show it off...depends on how it looks when i wake up tomarrow i think. if it's still all straight, i m i g h t wear it down, if not...then i'll put it up. i tried to call a-lo...ohh! update on the dream thing...omg...a-lo says her mom told her they are buying a white car O_O .. AND like.. last night or something her grandmother or someone had a dream that she had a wreck in a white car! EEP! I really need to make the communties pretty..i might work on that before i do my site..who knows. i'll have to talk to nicco and see what her opinion is...I miss nicco :( she's like poofiedededededed... :/ ... back to my new little message board now.. peace and love ya'll!
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| am i only dreaming... |
[31 Dec 2003|09:03am] |
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i just woke up...i had a terrible dream. it was really weird. i was in some kind of school...with only fifty students (or there abouts) they numbered us all off...and sat us in chairs. I was number 50, so i had to sit off to the side. well...they took like..numbers 10 -20 somewhere...then poof and A-lo and i were driving down my street. only a-lo was driving. she was driving some white car, and we were going down pine (only..it didn't really seem like pine) she was talking about how she wanted to drive her parents car (which is weird...because they don't even own a white car that i know of...aside from an suv...but this was just a little car) .. anyway, there were two cars behind us. and they both decided to pass us, both around a curve, one passed with no problem...but the second, when the second passed they were hit by a huge bus coming around the corner. the bus kept going, because it was really hard to stop. a-lo kept asking if we should stop, and we did...and turned around to go back...weird thing again...we ended up ramming into the car that got hit. i remember seeing the driver hitting his horn as the bus was pushing them...this wasn't like a school bus either...it was a charter bus. then it was really weird. it was like i was in the water...only it wasn't me. it was like the ocean with these huge rocks. and all the teddy bears were in the water....sinking down. and then there were three kids in the water...swimming towards the teddy bears, but they were the people that died in the crash...and my whole "school" was at the top...crying and tossing stuff into the water. O_o this...was weird. it made me cry, it was really sad.
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| aol is stupid |
[27 Dec 2003|09:40pm] |
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well, i tried to update when i said i would...but aol decided to be GAY..like it ALWAYS is..and keep me from being able to get to the update thingie. whatever though. i don't really have much to say anymore. i've been explaining LotR to my mom...as she watches it. she doesn't understand it >_< ... she was all "sooo... Orlando Bloom is the....fairy?" hahaha.. my moms so cute. I <3 her. i have been eating sooo much, i'm afraid to even step on the scale. i've hardly called anyone...it's weird. i just havn't had the urge to. i've had other things to do. anything is better then sitting at home. tomarrow i get to go see LotR: III ... yippie! I'm excited. the rest of break could suck and i wouldn't care. someone(I don't remember who...let's ponder on that) that they thought break was speeding by (i usually find this is the case when you're enjoying your break.) what will i be doing monday?!?! ANYTHING that envolves leaving the house. really, my parents let me do what i want...most the time. as long as i don't piss them off...they don't care. when i had a job, i could really do what ever i wanted. that's part of the reason i want on again. anything i wanted to do, all i had to do was tell them, not ask..just tell them. i still mostly have that freedom...my wings were a clipped alittle though :/, but it's okie. i still have more freedom then most. so i realy don't care. lalalala...well, i better go..and explain more of LotR to my mum... <3 love ya' all..night night.
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[27 Dec 2003|05:45pm] |
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blek. i'm about to leave my dads! YAY! OMG! I'm so ready to be home. i hate this place (only due to the fact that my step-mother...exist.) i just wanted to tell her off and walk out the door today sooo many times. whatever though, she's nice most the time. she just has her days. i get to go see lord of the rings tomarrow!!! YIPPIE! lalalala. i'm soooo happy about that. we have a whole 'nother week! woot! well, i'm off now to make the long drive home (why? because I refuse to drive on the highway! hehehe!) well, i'll post more in a few (like..an hour or so...when i get home :) ) ... <3 all...
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| interesting.... truly! |
[25 Dec 2003|08:24am] |
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going through my journal this morning..i found that three or four of my entries are all titled with "grrrrrrrrrrr" hahaha...i find it amusing :x..and only two with "yay!" which is less amusing. it means i'm not having as much fun :( sad...right? welll....that's not the importance of this entry! I'm just wishing all a very very merry christmas! <3
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[24 Dec 2003|06:22pm] |
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i'm at my dad's, which is cool and all. i love seeing them. but i'm stuck here for a while. at least i still have my computer and such, and my phone (cell..people..cell<3) i want a new cell phone...of course i want alot of things! teeheehee. Jay and Kim...and Kade...and A-lo ... woooooow..so much going on there...i don't know what to think about all of that, so i'm just not going to think much about any of it. i'll just listen to it all..heh...i learn alot just by listening. i'm starting to feel like my life's a little bit back on track (was it ever off? I think so..just a little). I'm getting my priorities straight again. i mean, come on..i graduate this year. i need to get a job, i need to figure out what i'm going to do the next couple of years (yes....college is in my plans..but where? what to major in? all these things..i dunno) I showed kim my lil' prom shoes... <3 their pretty. and since...i've never been a big dater..this won't be a shock, but i've pretty much decided to lay off boys until i get out of high school. this was kind of my plan from the begining (whoops) because high school relationships hardly ever last past high school...and they are immature...and just not worth the pain of it. so i'm going back to that original plan! and that's just about all...going to run down stairs and watch the tv with my folks now <3 ya'll!
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| wwwweeee |
[23 Dec 2003|08:15pm] |
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my parents just gave me Pirates of the Caribbean too! yay! I got my journal lookin' decent. I'm not done yet..i'm just tired of messing with it. the comments weren't working..so for the moment they are just ordinary! that will change though <3..that's 'bout it..love ya!
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| I'm happy... |
[23 Dec 2003|07:21pm] |
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I'm feelin' glad...yo'...i've got sunshine..in a bag. :) ... I'm happy! yo! I got my christmas crap buuuuddy! it's super awesome. i got a dvd player :)...LotR..alll the time now... boo-ya. I also got an answering machine, b/c my rents are tired of hearing me try to guess who's calling me...so yea. now i'll know..if people leave a message O_o' i know i wouldn't...but they won't get me caller ID again, so i have to deal with what i've got i guess. I'm working super hard on this journal thing..for about ten minutes it looked just like Niccos...on accident..i'm trying hard to change that..make it superman! yo! soooo..if it looks like niccos at anytime..SORRY! I'm really not meaning it too. i'm trying to figure this bs out...<3 ya' later!
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